Sunday, January 25, 2015

And then life happens. .

And Then Life Happens


No ones life is perfect. Let's face it, Disney sold us a bunch of BS with all their happily ever after. You fall in love, you get married, you have a kid or two, and then life happens. You go to sleep late because with your husbands constantly changing schedule, that is the only way you can see him. You wake up early just so you can have those brief 15 minutes of solitude to enjoy your coffee in peace without your mini me begging for food or to watch Princess. You get into this routine where you're a walking zombie who keeps wishing away her days yearning for that fun day that's coming up in the future. All the while you're missing what is happening around you. Life. Your little mini me's vocabulary is growing daily. She no longer colors random things on her coloring books, she colors her pictures and she even stays in the lines while doing so. 
Those moments when you just want to pee in peace. Just 2 minutes. Please. Just two minutes. But you have small little hands under the door begging to come in and be with mommy. You try to sneak a shower while she is finally sitting still watching a movie. Only to have her run upstairs, undressing while doing so, to surprise you because she wants to shower too.
Having your mini me covered in eye shadow because she wants to be like mommy. She doesn't care that it was your favorite Naked pallet and that even though you just spent the last hour deep cleaning the bathroom, you have to start back over because not only is the sink and counter covered in very expensive eye shadow, but so is the floor and mirror. 
Reading to her during bedtime and having her cuddle with you while she attempts to read the book with you. Then, when it's time for lights out, having her look at you with such unconditional love asking if you will prease sleep in her woom, mommy. 
Sometimes you just have to get away to remind yourself how wonderful you have it. She won't always want to be with you 24/7. There will come a day when she is too old to shower with you. When she will be too embarrassed to snuggle with you. When she will no longer want to sit beside you on the counter while you get ready. She won't always look at you at bedtime and say "sleep in my woom mommy, prease."
There's too many times where even though you are here all day everyday, you feel like you've missed out. You have been too caught up on how bored with life you were, that you forgot to look at the now. Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you fought hard to have the life you have. You wished and prayed daily for it. You even suffered loss in hopes to get it.
Sometimes you have to put your phone down. Facebook and Instagram can wait. You have to stop thinking about the future and yearning for things to come and focus on the now. Because soon enough, you're going to be yearning for the past and those little moments you missed out on because you were too busy worrying about trivial things. 
Life is short. The past can't be rewritten, but the future is your pallet to create whatever your heart desires. Let her make a mess painting even if that means you will be cleaning the paint out of the tub for over a month. If she wants to have a dance party, put those dishes down and just dance. 
They're only little once

In the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed.

1 comment:

  1. This is so true. There are days I would give anything to have you and your brother small again just once more!